Bittersweetgirl

Wkend

Wow this wkend really flew by...

Friday, I went to dinner at Academy of Spherical Arts. I had never heard of it before, but it's sorta an upscale pool hall in King West Village. They have an extensive beer menu and I got to try this one from Belgium called "Mort Subite Peche". It tasted like peach juice! Yum...Then I had cheese tortolenni which was SO yum. So sleepy, yet felt energized listening to z103 in the car...and passing by the club district, HEY let's go clubbing! So went to Lucid. I had a lotta fun. It's HUGE in there....some girls started scrapping it out. Only thing is I felt sorta old..I wonder if the crowd is any older on sat?

Sat morning got up early to go to the wedding ceremony for Aliza and Rahim. We showed up slightly late...I didn't think it would actually start ON schedule :) Then it was home again to nap before the reception. Got to Mississauga later that night at about 6. The hall was sooo pretty. It was very elegant. Love the waiters in their little white gloves! The reception was great...felt like I was at waterloo fedhall (same peeps I guess!) Another late night and I got home around 3am.

Today - took my grandma grocery shopping, did 4 loads of laundry and basically just tryin to gear up for the week ahead! I wonder what adventures lie infront of me now...

Sad

Wow I never knew how sad I would feel leaving everyone at Cybermation. It was really a whirlwind day but the emotional part didn't hit me until I was hugging Leah and my marketing team goodbye. Once the tears started, I couldn't stop thinking about how things would never be the same. I'm excited to be starting my new job at Rogers, but I really felt overwhelmed today. Knowing that the people I have spent the better part of my life with for the last 3 years won't be my daily anchor is something that is really hard for me to accept. Just thinking about it makes my eyes get all cloudy.

Do I believe in reincarnation? Sometimes you meet people that you seem to have an immediate connection with...it's almost like your lives were intertwined in another lifetime.

Then again, don't we only have one chance to make it right?

OK I'm rambling..it's 3am and I have to be at a wedding in 8 hrs.

Gym

So when Tanya and I were in Varadero, we thought it would be great if we could plan to go to the gym for 5 times in a week. I'm on day 3 so far and my body doesn't feel like it's in too much pain....sorta sore back muscles, but other than that I'm actually looking forward to going to the gym. It's those endorphins I think, so immediately after I work out I feel happy.  Yesterday, I kept staring at myself in the mirror like wow, I feel like a fat cow. I was also looking at photos just 2 years ago when I was in Jamaica for my bday and I was a lot thinner then. Well 2 more days of the gym this week so we'll see how it goes.

Things will change next week once I start my new job..I'm going to have to adjust everything....from the time it takes me to commute..I don't even know what time I'll be getting home every day. Ideally, I could use the gym at the Rogers Campus after work, then avoid rush hour on the TTC.

I wonder who ever first came up with the idea of toast with condensed milk? Assameia has some 'interesting' things on their menu. Barley embryo with that bubble tea? Ewww...just doesn't sound appetizing.

2 more days! It's time to get this show on the road...you know, my life and all...

New Car

ohmigod it's the hello kitty ferrari!!!!

Cuba in 20 words or less

Varadero was a blast! We had pretty good weather (considering the week before it was pouring rain everyday...) Things I will remember: Tanya getting locked in the bathroom at Pearson, me losing me duty free ticket, awful food, sugar daddy stalker, tattoo man, the topless women, old people making out at Club Havana, discussing relationships and meeting the other girls from Toronto!

We love Nick! (Oh MTV...)

Thanks for the good times Tan! (See pics under photos on right)

I know I tend to be dramatic at times...but I'm glad that this time I was able to open your eyes..

Cuba!

So Tanya and I were discussing vacations yesterday and when we could go blah blah, but sorta tricky since I start my NEW JOB Jan 31st.  So she says, what about  Thursday? I say, you mean January 20th? So we look at prices...and now we're off to Varadero for 4 days! Exciting..I love being spontaneous!! Warm weather, here I come.

Oh anxiety...I'm excited to be starting my new job, but man I'm having anxiety. Oh as a person I feel bad about stuff. Sad!!!

The whole process of getting to know people...wouldn't it just be easier to fill out a questionnaire? Hmm sounds like online dating..then you have that whole issue of people lying about who they are. I can't help being old fashioned in some ways. Oh so hard...honesty, vulnerability, you want me to be open to get hurt? Surface stuff - fun, but it's the whole intimacy of being open about the tough stuff that make me feel a connection. "That's important to me!!!!!!" -  yelled Torrence "Bring it On"

Oh year of the pisces!!!

Maybe I'd be better on my own
No one ever seems to understand me
It's easier for me to be alone
But there's still a piece of me that feels so empty
-"where are you now" Michelle Branch

I hadn't listened to Michelle Branch's album in awhile. I suppose there's only so much dance music I can listen to...:)

Had a great weekend. Went out for Jess's bday on Friday....oh no are we at the age where we don't have parties??? We just went to Amore Trattoria and then saw Spanglish (meh...). That pic is of the phallic bench at Cineplex theatre.  Sat - Test drove the Mini Cooper S, then later  Bistro 333 and Club Menage for Aliza's Bachelorette party. Hmm why is traffic so bad? Oh right, it's Monster Truck wkend. Eww that sure explains the crowd. Sun - Brunch at Milestones, shopping at Yorkdale, then went to see "In Good Company".

Gawd if there's one thing I know about it's that I won't be rushing into marriage...You know..that whole first-hand knowledge of what happens when you don't take the time to get to know someone.

Infomercials

Wow I don't know why it's so hard to turn away from infomercials! This Slim n Lift just KILLS me!!! It's a bodysuit so you won't see the rolls...hahah

I'm Free!

So I've been having anxiety all week. Heart palpitations and stuff. I'm not big on confrontation so it really stressed me out. How can  I tell? I was able to function on 3 hrs of sleep for the past few nights. Last night was the first night that I actually slept more than 6 hrs. Oh felt good to wake up and look at the time and it says 6am (instead of 3am!)

I'm so excited for what's coming up for me. I think I'm ready for a brand new start....Need a change!

It's funny how anger spurs a good cardio workout. I should get angry more often...as long as I can continue to use the gym as an outlet i'm set! YAY!

Happy Monday

Boy, the mind sure gets confused when it hears phone ringing at 5:30am....what is that sound? Ringing....mind not making connection. 5 min later...wait that sounded like MY phone...oh...must check to make sure it's not an emergency....don't recognize the phone number. Crazy me must do a reverse lookup. Oh..it's someone fr/ Ajax trying to call. Right, I don't know anyone in Ajax...now I can't fall back asleep. Gotta love these happy days!

This wkend was interesting. I went to Licks on Fri and to see "The Aviator" for Jeremey's bday. Hmm I didn't realize the movie would be so friggin long. As in 3 hours long. Still not sure what I thought of it. Probably not so good.

I tried to catch up to "24"...but just not enough hours in the day to finish watching an entire season in just over a day. I did watch the season premiere of 24 but sorta confused since I didn't finish watching season 3. Where did all the regular people go? Hmm...

I hadn't been to Dave and Busters for prob at least a year or so. Surprisingly nothing's changed. Oh except for the ticket counter..it's now a mini-store. I got a Care Bear. Almost seems worth it after spending all that money on those stupid coupon games. Oh why are you so addictive. I rock at basketball, who knew?

I'm beginning to wonder if even *I* would measure up to my own standards. Oh pisces..why do I have to be so crazy....

Pretty Snow!

So we were supposed to get a snowstorm today. Turned out not to be so bad. V. busy at work lately...I guess cuz coming back from the holidays lotsa stuff to get done. Had some pho for dinner at went shopping. I bought a nice purse. That's it. Funny phone call in Shoe Company! Barfy? Like in the car? Ewwww...

Like Eileen's new hat? I know it looks like a wig...but they actually sell this furry thing at Danier.

Also went to No Frills and they sell: Banana ungassed cooking for 47 cents. What are ungassed bananas? Thought that was interesting....hmm my camera on my phone works well in a pinch. Have to capture these Kodak moments!

I hear PSP is coming out in March ! YAY!! Know what's in March? MY BDAY! YAY!