Bittersweetgirl

"I see that the Lord

"I see that the Lord really wants us in this game"
-Nicole of the "Dating models" couple in Amazing Race

Sigh.

Dragonboat practices make me sleepy. Zzzz.

The Ex tomorrow! YAY!

I'm obsessed. I really want

I'm obsessed. I really want a pair of Uggs. Help me Oprah!!!

I know a place where

I know a place where I can go when I'm alone
into your arms whoa into your arms
I can go
-Lemonheads

I just finished watching "Before Sunrise". I got it on DVD cuz I couldn't find it in any rental stores. Oh such a good movie. I can't get enough of these characters. That kind of connection....how often do you think you find that? The times I thought I had I suppose I was wrong. Or perhaps it just wasn't meant to be. Another time, another place?

The saddest part of my day is when you drive me home.
AWWWWW Love Actually.

Ok I'll stop now.

So I guess I might

So I guess I might have some self-esteem issues, but I never was really comfortable hearing compliments. And so I've been accustomed to not being accepting when I do receive them. Ain't it interesting to see how this has affected everything in my life..touches stuff fr/ relationships to career stuff. These past few weeks I've just felt really bitter, melancholy and pensive. Thinking about relationships. Thinking about careers. Thinking about where I want to be in 10 years. Someone told me that I was guarded. That is why I seem unapproachable. I guess it's the whole thing that if you let people in, you might get hurt. I'm avoiding that, but then what kind of life is that..?

Apparently I'm destined to meet someone at Second Cup (or something similar). It's true what they say...you have to make things happen! I'm too busy waiting for destiny (fate) to intervene.

It hasn't been any easier on me. I've just dealt with things differently.

Sometimes I have days where I just want to be alone. Is that so wrong?

Don't you forget about me

Don't you forget about me
don't..don't..don't...

Breakfast Club was on tv tonite. Yay!

Dragon boat practice was horrible yesterday. The cool winds made lake ontario icy cold. What's that? Frostbitten hand? Ouchie. The practice was really hard, but I guess that's good. It was the first time I really thought, wow dragon boat is so NOT fun.

Sarah McLachlan was awesome in

Sarah McLachlan was awesome in concert!! So talented...guitar, piano and singing...Her voice is so soothing. Even her speaking voice. Amazing....go see her if you have the chance. Her songs sounded even bettter live...one of the few artists who's albums I can listen to in full. I'm glad I got to go at the last minute.

A girl asked a guy

A girl asked a guy if he thought she was pretty, he said...no.

She asked him if he would want to be with her forever....and he said
no.

She then asked him if she were to leave would he cry, and once again
he replied with a no.

She had heard enough.

As she walked away, tears streaming down her face the boy grabbed
her arm and said....

You're not pretty you're beautiful.

I don't want to be with you forever. I NEED to be with you forever.

And I wouldn't cry if you walked away...I'd die...

And all the while I

And all the while I was telling you that you deserve more than me, I should've been saying, you aren't enough for *me*.

What an awesome wkend....banquet dinner

What an awesome wkend....banquet dinner on Thursday followed by a wkend at Bangor Lodge with the family and extended family. So many kids I haven't met! They're all so cute! (when they're not crying...) The drive up to Muskoka actually wasn't as long as I thought. Bangor Lodge totally reminded everyone of "Dirty Dancing". The people are very friendly, and the food was great! It was so nice to have everyone together. The games were fun too...man, our family rules in Pictionary. I went to the driving range, did some paddle boating, and went swimming in the pool. What I didn't do was sleep. Between my dad's snoring, and our rowdy neighbours, I didn't get to rest much. Still, it was all good fun...how nice to see the whole family together and laughing. Reminds me of when I was a kid and I thought everything was perfect in the world.

Barbapapa!!!

Barbapapa!!!