Bittersweetgirl

Queen Street is scary at

Queen Street is scary at night. When you're walking by yourself. Ducking in shoe stores to avoid 'friendly' people. Don't think I'm down w/ the vegan. I like meat. mmmmm meat. Portobello mushroom steak is not steak.

Funny how songs bring back memories.

Everything's so blurry
and everyone's so fake
and everybody's empty
and everything is so messed up
-Puddle of Mudd

Where were you when that song took to the airwaves?

Dad's idea of consolation: 'Well relationships are hard. You have to look at yourself...you have faults too.'

Gee.
Thanks!

It's hard to read a book like "Devil Wears Prada" after reading stuff like "Life of Pi", "Falling Leaves", "Secret Life of Bees." I need something with meaning....Donne moi l'inspiration!

C'est difficile. Things fall apart

C'est difficile.

Things fall apart when I'm not around. People seem to only realize how much I do when I'm away. Pretty funny really...when I'm there all the time, no one bugs me.

Thanks KBB and PHb. It

Thanks KBB and PHb. It was a really good weekend. Nice to see how my independent friends are living. What a change from Richmond Hill stylz! Manicures and shopping..and eating. KBB lives in a hotel! :) Seattle's a small city, but I like how you can pretty much walk everywhere downtown.

Spent a lot of time thinking too. In a way, the whole weekend was just a sense of disorientation with the timezone change, inconsistent sleeping pattern. I know myself that the decision was probably best...for both of us. But that doesn't make it any easier. Still have moments of just extreme sadness. Has it only been a week? Feels like the longest week EVER.

Oh, mirror in the sky
What is love
Can the child within my heart rise above
Can I sail through the changing ocean tides
Can I handle the seasons of my life
-Stevie Nicks

Thanks that was fun. Don’t

Thanks that was fun.
Don’t forget, no regrets (’cept maybe one)
Made a deal, not to feel (god, that was dumb)
-Barenaked Ladies

Things are beginning to return

Things are beginning to return to normal: I can eat again!

Can anybody find me...

Is stress contagious? Just seems

Is stress contagious? Just seems a lot of people seem to be going through a lot of stress around me right now. Don't know if it's work or what.

Can't wait to see KBB and PHb. It will be fun to see my independent friends.

Up
down
up
down
up...

The week draws to a close.

Can somebody tell me how to get things back the way they used to be?

Don't know why I'm still

Don't know why I'm still afraid
If you weren't real I would make you up
now
I wish that I could follow through
I know that your love is true
And deep
As the sea
But right now
Everything you want is wrong,
And right now
All your dreams are waking up,
And right now
I wish I could follow you
To the shores
Of freedom,
Where no one lives.
Remember when we first met
And everything was still a bet
In love's game
You would call; I'd call you back
And then I'd leave
A message
On your answering machine
But right now
Everything is turning blue,
And right now
The sun is trying to kill the moon,
And right now
I wish I could follow you
To the shores
Of freedom,
Where no one lives
Freedom
Run away tonight
Freedom, freedom
Run away
Run away tonight
We're made out of blood and rust
Looking for someone to trust
Without
A fight
I think that you came too soon
You're the honey and the moon
That lights
Up my night
But right now
Everything you want is wrong,
And right now
All your dreams are waking up,
And right now
I wish that I could follow you
To the shores
Of freedom
Where no one lives
Freedom
Run away tonight
Freedom freedom
Run away
Run away tonight
We got too much time to kill
Like pigeons on my windowsill
We hang around
Ever since I've been with you
You hold me up
All the time I've falling down
But right now
Everything is turning blue,
And right now
The sun is trying to kill the moon,
And right now
I wish I could follow you
To the shores
Of freedom
Where no one lives
-Joseph Arthur

F*cking nightmares. Now I can't

F*cking nightmares. Now I can't sleep. On top of the lack of hunger thing, this f*cking sucks. No websavers for me either. It's just my luck.

I don't know what I want anymore...but something has to change. I'm sick of the things that are happening in my life. I feel so unteethered. Everything seems to have a short shelf life. Day in day out same thing. Is this really how it's going to be? I find it unsettling to not know what my purpose is.

Alright, things get better from here on in...That's an order!!

"What do you want, my

"What do you want, my soul or something?"
"Well why not? I deserve that.."
-Jerry Maguire

How much do I love this movie?

I am aware now... First

I am aware now...

First golf lesson. Very basics. Yaay, I love beginner stuff.

Work is stressing me out. Suppose that nothing out of the ordinary. Looking forward to the weekend. So the cycle can begin all over again...